As I
increased my physical activity around 8 months post op (April 2014), things
kind of hit a downward slope. I was able to get up to 2.5 mi walk but had to
push through it. I tried getting back into hot yoga again and it felt great
even if I couldn’t do every pose due to restrictions. I did make sure to listen
to my body and was very careful. I still continued with my ART and chiropractic
sessions about 2 times a month. Since I was so far along he didn’t really feel
I should need the adjustments as much just to focus more on the physical
therapy aspects. Personally I feel like I cannot survive the muscle issues
without constant ART sessions and chiropractic adjustments. I had also started volunteering
at a horse rescue barn for about 3-4 hours every Thursday. I was so tired of being
“woe is me” and needed to give back to my community. My physical therapist
thought it was good for me to go for the mental and physical reasons, too. I
agreed it was good for me emotionally but ended up finding myself in more pain and very
exhausted after my rounds on Thursdays. I have really struggled to find a
balance of what is too much activity. I have since stopped volunteering at the
barn and just trying to focus on my health. It was a very hard decision but I
hope to find other ways to help the organization.
Overall I
have been battling the increased nagging groin, trochanter bursa, TFL, glute
medius and glute minimus pain. I’ve since tried to get back into pool therapy
combined with land physical therapy. I see some strength and balance benefits
but I still feel really unstable again and my left hip constantly pops
internally and externally. It sometimes can hurt really bad other times it is
just a nuisance. Acupuncture with TENS and cupping were my next attempt
alongside PT. This can give me some relief but only lasts maybe a day or two. The
constant cycle of pain and limitations affecting my life can be very draining!
The thing I cannot understand is I am not on narcotics anymore but push through
more of what I wouldn’t have previously. I feel like it is just my new "normal". Maybe this is as good as it gets? Am I asking too much? I know it is hard for my
boyfriend to see me in pain. When I envision us having a family in the future,
I want to be able to keep up! I struggle now even holding a baby for awhile or lifting them repeatedly. I definitely would not be able to carry a child for 9 months, give
birth or take care of our children. It makes me really sad :( Having a surgeon out of state it is hard to
keep flying to see them. Honestly didn't think I would be having complications but that is the reality that I didn't take into account. I realized I needed to find a surgeon in state who is
knowledgeable enough AND willing to take over my complex case. Every doctor or specialist I have met over the years has told me I am very complex. This is a very
hard and daunting task....
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